Bad, bad, bad eating day.
Went crazy at dinner… man.
I’m mad at myself, but I had fun with my friend, so I guess it cancels out.
Tomorrow is a new day.
Bon appetit, my friends!
Tori
cheat day
Current Temptation: Raphsodic Bakery Cupcakes!
These beautiful cupcakes are my current temptation.
Eighteen vegan, gluten-free, and DELICIOUS cupcakes are sitting in my fridge, begging to be devoured.
If you are vegan and/or following a gluten-free diet and live in the Orlando area, you NEED to check out Raphsodic Bakery on Mills Ave. Located right next to the Colonial/ST RD 50 intersection, this co-op is a haven of delectable treats and kind bakers.
I’ve always been greeted with a smile (and a free sample), and I’ve never made it out of the store without a box of goodies to savor for the week.
I can’t speak highly enough for the quality of their products, their customer service, and the overall warmth of their environment. In fact, when I called in my order last night (I pre-paid for two cupcake boxes after they announced a special on Facebook!), they threw in two free scones (also vegan and gluten-free) as a thank you for my repeat business.
Seriously, how amazing is that?
Regardless of what diet you’re on, Raphsodic Bakery is the place to go in Orlando when you’ve got a sweet tooth. So, what are you waiting for? Go check them out and tell them Victoria Elizabeth sent you! 🙂
Bon appetit, my friends!
Tori
Tuesday Accountability Report
My sweet tooth was in overdrive today and I definitely overindulged. Whoops!
I was at work 9-9 again so I wasn’t able to make it to the gym again (second day in a row).
I plan to hit the gym HARD tomorrow (think 2+ hours cardio AND strength training) to cancel out some of the munchies I’ve had the last 24 hours.
Hope everyone else has been doing better with clean eating than I have this week! 🙂
Bon appetit, my friends!
Tori
Saturday Accountability Report
Holy CHEAT DAY, Batman!
Man, did I splurge today! I enjoyed frozen yogurt at the mall, a couple of adult beverages at Downtown Disney, and a few beverages before bed.
I must say… I enjoyed myself today. I will probably regret the calorie damage tomorrow, but I walked over 4 hours at Downtown Disney and squeezed in 90 minutes on the elliptical, so it wasn’t all bad!
I hope everyone is having a great weekend!
Bon appetit!
Tori
Friday Accountability Report
Whoops!
I crashed early last night (I blame the wine!) and forgot to post my report.
Here’s how I did:
Not horrible for a Friday night! In fact, I am positive I walked more than 45 minutes, as I walked up and down an outdoor art stroll for over an hour (and bought an awesome steampunk necklace and vintage shirt in the process)!
All in all, it was a good night!
How is your weekend starting off?
Bon appetit, my friends!
Tori
Wednesday Accountability Report
I decided to forgo the weigh-in today, as I’m not in the best headspace right now and don’t want to compound it with body issues, too.
I splurged today, savoring candy with my team and enjoying a cookie (and wine!) after the gym. No regrets.
Here’s today’s breakdown:
Lots of sugar! Definitely going to try to be better tomorrow. I’m working 9-9, so that should help …as long as I don’t eat any of the cupcakes I baked for my team. Whoops! They don’t have any chocolate (or sour watermelon flavoring), so that should help!
Bon appetit, my friends!
Tori
A Planned Reward!
I’ve made a deal with myself today.
If I am good – eat healthy for lunch, avoid the vending machine in the afternoon, and hit the gym HARD after work – I get to have an extra special treat tonight.
I’m not normally one for pre-made cookie dough, but I picked up a package of Immaculate Baking Company’s gluten-free (and dairy-free) chocolate chip cookies this weekend. I baked them last night and, amazingly, resisted the temptation to have one (as I’d already gone over my sugar allowance for the day).
Check these beauties out:
Yum! My house smelled like HEAVEN for hours after baking these up last night.
So, if I can survive today without temptations (my diet has been pretty shaky the last week or so), I get to have one of these dream-discs (150 calories!) and a glass of wine after dinner!
Perhaps not this generous of a pour, but who knows? 🙂 Let’s see how my day turns out!
Bon appetit, my friends!
– Tori
Saturday Accountability Report
My grandmother and I spent the day on the beach today, and I promised myself I wouldn’t worry about calories.
We nibbled a few snacks, had an awesome lunch of fresh seafood right by the water, and I munched on a decent share of candy in the evening.
Fortunately, I snuck in a major workout (grandma left at 4pm), so it cancelled out what could have been a major cheat day!
I’m not 100% comfortable in my bathing suit yet, but I’m working to get there. Meanwhile, I love cheesing with my grandmother! 🙂
Bon appetit, my friends!
– Tori
Down Day
I don’t like what I see in the mirror today.
I’m frustrated. Frustrated with my body, frustrated with my will power, frustrated with me (on every level).
I kill myself at the gym only to come home and eat junk food. I know better. I understand good nutrition and I eat healthy 90% of the time, but I find myself in a self-sabotaging mood almost every evening.
In the span of minutes, I undo all the work of my day. A bite here, a bite there, and I’ve cancelled out an intensive sweat session.
I’m angry. Angry at myself, angry at genetics. My mother is tiny. My father was tiny. I never once saw either enter a gym. I never once saw either count a calorie. They just were.
For the majority of my adult life, I’ve been aware. Aware of what I eat, aware of what I do (or don’t do), and aware of how I look. I’ve never just existed. I’ve been hyper-aware of food, of my body, and of the world’s perception of me for as long as I can remember.
I’m tired of being jealous of other people. Tired of being jealous watching someone eat something I deny myself, put on a pant size I can never hope to squeeze into. I’m tired of not being satisfied of where I am of, of where I’ve come from.
Will I ever love my body? Will I ever hit my “goal” if my goal is never static? Will I ever stop being jealous and start appreciating what I have?
Looking at myself in the mirror today, I think the answer is no.
Hoping for a better day tomorrow,
~ Tori
A Week Off!
In case anyone has been questioning the radio silence on this blog, I wanted to let you know that I’ve just returned from a week long vacation out of town during which I attempted to fully disconnect from work, from school, and from dieting.
Other than a few emails to and from my Director, checking my final grades for the spring term, and the occasional moment of guilt as I walked past the hotel gym eating popcorn, I managed to do all three.
I took a total hiatus from calorie-counting, carb-watching, and Paleo-adherence and enjoyed a week of eating what I wanted, when I wanted, and savoring the local delights of a new city.
I’m pleased to say that I LOST weight. Yep, you read that correctly: I ate freely and lost weight.
I was 133.2 the morning I left for the trip (Wednesday) and returned home on Sunday night (yes, an evening weigh-in!) at 131.8.
Walking the city instead of using public transport helped, plus I tended to savor each delicacy I tried – thus consuming less because I ate slowly and allowed myself to feel full naturally.
I had a great trip and enjoyed the detachment, but I must admit I’m glad to be home. I missed my regimen!
Although, I can’t lie: this pizza alone makes me want to move north:
Yum!! Stuffed pizza, as if regular pizza wasn’t bad enough! Haha.
It’s good to be back, my friends. Bon appetit!
-Tori
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